A Hole in the SOUL

and no way to fill it.


Isn't that an apt definition of how lives are these days? We are all bodies, corporeal, solid, tangible who are sorely at odds with their souls! experiencing the ultimate 'disconnect,' Our minds, our thoughts, our inner-beings, the thing we refer to as I is so at odds with the body that we proclaim as ours and houses this I.

Am I professing some new age mantra or some "me, myself and I" kind of new philosophy? Not at all, I try and stay away from such void thoughts and catch phrases which are hollow and lack depth... but yes I would agree with one basic problem that people face at this point in time by the multitude - and that is - our inability to feel content, our sheer impossibility of feeling whole and complete within, happy with our lot, fulfilled without that gnawing feeling of having a void or a vacuum within!

The modern times, especially, the 21st century is harsh. Everyone around us is busy in his own life, we are all busy with doing this or that, because doing is far more valued than being. It isn't enough to exist, to be, to just live - no! - what is more important now is to do, to act, to translate every single thought that one may have or has into concrete and tangible action. We are not interested in people's thinking, not at all, what we are interested is in his actions! what motivates those actions isn't what should or does concerns us.


We as people of today are lugging along with an obtuse and intense desire of wanting more and more 'things'! the more material and concrete things we have, we own and claim as our own for others to see, the more comfortable and successful we feel in life. Our clothes, our accessories, our modes of transport, our houses, our social circles all become not an end in themselves, but a means to an end - that being having an upper hand on other people, of feeling superior and better and richer and well-placed and well endowed than the others. There is a kind of satisfaction - a strange happiness that comes from owning more things than others and of others envying us!


In a quest for all things material, substantial, identifiable with the peculiar characteristic of being put on display, we forget about our inner beings, our SOULS, which have no use for any material object and isn't satisfied with them. The soul needs love, attention, validation, thought and understanding - it needs to be nurtured, to be tended, like a garden. We neglect our souls, our need for true friends, our basic yearning to be understood, felt, and communicate with. In the craziness of wanting more and more on the outside, we forget and ignore our insides, we do not care to delve within our own depths and try to gauge as to what really is important to us. In a race to be better than others and have more than others we may end up 'owning' more, but 'having' less.

And, that is when the Hole in the SOUL syndrome comes into play...we walk in our beautiful expensive, very fashionable clothes, tracing the room and corridors of our magnificent houses, riding our vulgarly over the top cars...and still feel dead! almost like a corpse trailing our footsteps feeling all empty and hellish inside.


The modern condition is - a 'black hole' inside us, right in the center of our ribs, a hole so large and empty, that even light cannot escape it. It is that gnawing feeling of being alone, of all not going our way, of feeling absolutely lost and misunderstood in this wide world, of not being fulfilled by any amount of material things!