I imagine it must be something to do with my being on the edge most of the time, but these days somehow, my mind is coming up blank, well, the best way to describe the dilemma is to say that my thoughts are not in any logical progression (that is if they ever were,) and, also they seem to form no cohesive pattern. Simply put, I am not thinking about anything in particular, I am only getting random images in my mind at a super-sonic speed. So, when a thought or an images comes in and I am ready to focus it is followed by a string of myriad images and multiple thoughts that have no relation to one another and therefore cannot be sifted and thought about.
There, I finally got that off my chest. It is such a bizarre feeling to feel this way and to be encountered with such a volley of sensations and emotions and feelings in an tumultuous manner. Does this mean that the electric currents in my brain (which is closet indication of thoughts or mind activity) are short-circuiting perhaps? they are somehow off line and hence there is something 'wrong'?
If I concentrate (which I can't at the moment) will I be able to settle my mind on to one thing, one topic, one aspect? I doubt it, I think it is going to go on its crazed activity till it wants to and stop whenever it wants. I am now thinking that music at these times of ferocious mental activity might be the calming drug? maybe and tonight I will try out.
Is not thinking, not being able to think rational and logical thoughts a good thing? It could very well be. For it cleanses your mind, your soul and your inner being or does it? I can hardly tell, for when I'm blank, its not having an image in my mind's eye rather its having too many of them all at the same time or in an haphazard fashion resulting in absolute pandemonium and then its completely empty! and once its blank then the whole process starts again!
Is this a sign of madness?
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