and let it all pour out. Let loose the tumult of emotions, pull up the walls of the dam, release and let go....
We keep too many things bottled up inside ourselves, try too hard to keep up an appearance, put in all our energies to take on a shape which we have in our minds of how we should look to others. It is a tiring and exhausting job, to be on our guards all the time, to say the lines that we have ascribed to this role that we are constantly playing. Why do we torture ourselves so? what is the desperate need to be this image that we have built for ourselves somewhere in our psyche? And why do we assume that the image that we need to portray and cling to is doing us justice? that somehow it is what we ought to be and is obviously better and more worthy than our own original self?
Coming to this original self? do we even have it? or is it too muddled up in our own minds, that is we are muddled up so much to pick up on the nuances and pointers that make us 'us', and not another? Or are we too harassed in mutilating that individuality to become more and more like others that we lose our selves all together?
What if we for a while give up all pretenses and affectations, and embrace our own person, no matter how mundane, irksome, boring and lifeless that may seem to us. What would happen to us? would we be found out? would we lose face? or what? or would we breathe freely and openly, would we ease into the the world as if a massive hurdle has been removed from our way, would we feel the way we do after changing into our old pjs from an over fitted suit. I think we need to be us, ourselves, and heck with the images and imaging, and hell with projections and projecting, and impressions and impressing.
We spend so many of our precious hours trying to be someone else, a false person and somehow respect that more than ourselves. We need to be in touch with the I inside of us, and be able to say without approbation what that I feels? is that a difficult enterprise? is that a daring step, perhaps, but we owe it ourselves, the true I that we pour our hearts out and accept what its feeling and say it!
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